Butterfly in me...

OMG! I'm so dead tired! Rushing here & there just for the wedding preparation! I was hoping that everything will go wit the flow but N.O!... Haiz...

I was so disappointed with the dresser table & my slumb*rland bedset. I brought both item at the same furniture company.

First the dresser problem, when i first looked at it..... I'm so pissed off! the finishing was totally disastrous! it wasn't the one that we pick at the showroom... Ugly finishing, poor quality, the handle was a plastic type (shld be metal), the chair got extra unwanted hole (wrong drilling),and the mirror is the WORST MIRROR I EVER SEEN BEFORE! Helo, im paying $400 for a ugly poor quality dresser?! U must be kidding me, right!? Well, it supposed to be sliding mirror with the internal compartment.

It can't even slide in and out nicely, and it almost drop off! They can't even beat my D&T skill okay! Not even close to me! Useless! and they still dare to send me a defect item to my house and waste my time & energy! my boiling point is at the MAX!

Of coz, I rang up that company. I gave him a very good "talking" to him, I f*** him up and demand a exchange! Well, customer is always right... heehee~ so I told him off that I will use it to offset the the balance of my bedset. I warned him to make sure that the slumb*rland bedframe & the matteress is the right one. And of coz he ensure me everything is gonna be fine.

After waited about 1 hr, to cut the story short. The damn bloodly stupid f**king company, SCREW UP AGAIN. And this time was they packer didn't pack the bedstand. Hubby was totally pissed off... and me, I can't stop cursing & swearing the screwed up company! So I looked up and asked my hubby, " U or me?" and hubby said,"let me do the talking".... Hubby rang up the manager, and demand the manager explaination & compensate us for all the trouble that we went thru' . Finally they agreed to compensate us extra two pillow = four slumb*rland heavenly pillow, a slumb*rland matteress cover. Hmm, I must say it was a "cooling" deal for me... heehee well it does help to cool off my boiling point :)

Now everything is perfect... I brought my wardrobe & dresser at another place which was awesome! :) the quality is super-solid zen! Love the wardrobe so much, it was custom made for us. The sales person was really nice to let us design our wardrobe compartment. And I must say the price is totally reasonable cheap price for a high end quality wardrobe. Simply Heaven!... And as for the dresser, we brought a zen chestdrawer dresser :)) yay! I must say that I love my bedroom set... So zen style design by H&K, hahaha~ Now our love nest has completed, and next in our agenda is the invitation card.

I can't believe it's so tiring stuff to do. I have to write for my dad's side, my late mum's side, and for myself. My hand just went numb!.... Cards are finally done! Hubby still thinking who shld he invite... Coz he got long list to pick...Well, it took me quite sometime though... Anyway, we almost finish sending out the cards to all the family members. Still got 3 more houses to go... Total 750 cards are on the way now!

Gee, look at that clock... I'm soon to be married and be a somebody wife :) And I can't wait anymore.... Yay!! You know, what I love about getting married?? (Notti thought, uh? ) hehehe... ;)) Actually, to be honest I can't wait to go for honeymoon!!! I'm need a break!! I just want to lay down, look up to the sky, smell the beach, let the wind blow my hair & smile to my darling who is next to me.... Holding my hand with my wedding ring on my finger... And say,"You're mine, sayang".... Awww, so romantic kan? heehee gatal eh... But seriously, it is stressful and you can feel really pressure for the preparation. Taking all things seriously, it just maddest! I want it close to prefection, and there's so many things I need to settle. Since it's a combine wedding on sunday, I want it to prefect for us.

Insyallah, I hope everythings will goes as plan. Amin.

Okay folks, I will update my studio pix soon... C ya!

Long waiting moment......

Wahhh... Look at the timer!! Oh goshh.... Can't believe my eyes~

In 2 mth, I'm will be somebody tai-tai liao, heehee~ So exciting!....

Anyway, diz week we will collect the invitation cards. Can't wait to invite all my families member, frenz.... I really hope there won't be any error in the printing, previously got so many mistakes here and there.( smp I tkleh tdor malam tao, so many error)

Hubby & I have to make our way to JB just to edit all the crap mistake. It took us 3 hours to finalised all the wording, make sure all the spelling is correct. Wahh~ u know it's so stressful! the name, timing, the place...etc ( Mcm nk print birth cert sey~ so detail!! )

Im just so worried if got ... (Touch wood!!~) But if it does have, I will sue them!! Arghh~ that card cost me 70cents each in sgd okay! Plus my trip expenses, makan lah and all the rubbish spending!! (Including the chewing gum, kenny roger.. oh I miss those BBQ grilled chicken~yummy) Mahal you know.... Haiz, can't wait to see my beautiful cards with the hot stamping to our name ... Hidayat & Kamariah... Wow! heehee.. (it sound so nice right..??) OMG~ Im geting MARRIED!! heehee...

oh ya, I forgot to collect my studio pix, DAMN! Diz week got so many things to do... Maybe I will collect it next 2 week lah, then can do my facial treatment too... Well, i need to pampered myself seriously, I do feel the pressure about the wedding stuff. But at the same time, Im happy that finally I want settled down with someone that really loving, caring & cherish every bits of me. It's a dream come true to be my charming prince :)

I love you sayang~ Anyway, hubb I love the watch so much... :) Everyday I keep playing with it, so nice to have a proper watch.. hahaha~ Seriously, I never had a proper watch b4... I always buy the bracelet watch type.... Now, finally I got a proper lady watch..Thanx to my hubby! Well, can only wear it after the wedding thou' coz it's parts of the hantaran gift... so got to WAIT again~ haiz boring!!!! Everything got to WAIT!!! want to wear my big D CANnot, gold bracelet CANnot, makeup all CANnot...

HAIZzz! talking about makeup, Hubb & i were at bugis OG we were just look see- look see for my makeup set... And we were standing looking at E.A counter and the makeup set were reasonable price. I don't really wear that E.A makeup, but for the hantaran I just ask hubb to buy it for me... Coz they look nice but I don't know if it suitable for my skin... the sales lady was so generous she knows that we getting it for the hantaran (apparently she say most "malay couple" brought it for hantaran)and she give me extra full size lipstick, double color eyeshadow, perfume sample, extra lip liner .... Wahh, so nice of her!... Now all the necessary hantaran gifts have "almost" complete... Arghh~ Really can't wait to use all of them...!!!

okay, getting sleepy & tired now... Waiting for hubby calls, but i don't think he will call coz it already past 104o now.. He's sleeping now...

zZzzz

Just one more step....

Haizz... Im not in the mood to blog today. I felt so restless & tired (yawning). I just want to update about my B.W.E... Last saturday hubby & i went to APKIM to attend M.C class (Mariage Course lah, heehee..) It was really special moment for us :)

I was quite nervous to attend the course. (scare if we got a fierce ustaz, hahah!) Fortunately, we got a nice humble ustaz (Hmm,forgot his name) At first, I was a bit uncomfortable because it was kind of awkward looking at each other.

During the course the ustaz asked hub, "do you sincerely love kamariah?", "is she the one for you?" And hubby replied," Yes, I'm sure." It was so emotional for me to hear that from hubby. And what more emotional when the ustaz said that, "I can see that you (hubb) sincerely loves her and I want you to loves her now & only death do both of you apart. (Insyaallah). I can see that both of you suitable for each other." :) Aww~ "Only death do us apart" (that's mine favourite poem) Then suddenly the ustaz asked me," Awak nie arab?" I was surprised by his question. So I answered him that I'm malay jer not arab. He said that I have that looks... (maybe it's mine sharp nose ya) hehehe....

It was really good experience & better knowledge for us to know about marriage. The family planning, budget planning, prayer, emotional, intimacy :) heehe~ I was a bit shy when the ustaz touch on this sexual topic, heehee~ very detail ya.... Anyway, the most I enjoyed is the "nikah practise" hubby was abit nervous (eventhough it just a acting) Well, hubby just need more practise ya :) hahaha... but after 2,3 times handshake he did quite good thou'. And the most funniest parts is when the ustaz keep forgetting the mahr, heehee~ Everytime when he said, "Aku nikah kan dikau dengan kamariah bte abd rahman dengan emas khawin nya.... ahhh anu, hmm beraper?" then both of us replied, "satu set barang kemas". Not once, but 5 or 6 times we have to remind him about the mahr. heehee~ he's cute though'

Anyway. it was a long day for us. After the session with ustaz, we went for the group discussion with 4 other couple. The same things but much more relax, fun & less intense. Finally after 3.5hrs discussion, we received our "passport" :) yay~ hurray!

Message for Hubby: What I want for my birday is....??.... you can see the answer below :) heehee..Mmm, so you know what to do right....?? heeeheeAnd finally, I got some pix to update...

These are mine lil' sweety-pie.... Aliya Lashirah 3yr old, & Ayra Shahirah 1yr old. Aww~ I love both of them :) Look at them, they've grow so much.... Aliya is so clever now, she knows how to recite surah, numbers, words.... I'm so proud of her. And ayra, she is so cute & playful! ! I love hugging her :) Miss you lil devil....

Yesterday is history, today is present, tomorrow is mistery...

Hey der.... I felt so happy to spend my day with hubby on my BDAY. Well, I can say that I'm touch & glad to see that he make an effort to rush back from his camp to fetch me back on my Bday... Awww! Swweety you shldn't have to do that :) ....( Pity my hubby, I hate seeing him carry that big bulky heavy bag...) Hubby, sms me @ very last min that he wants to celebrate my Bday on friday instead of sat...

He wanted to treat me mine favourite Crayfish Pasta & he want to be with me on mine birthday :)) Isn't he sweetzz??... For the last 2 years, I don't really celebrate coz hubby wasn't around. (Only my client brought me alot of junky chocolates & alot of surprises.) So diz year is a PAY-BACK time for hubby... Haahaha~

Anyway, I meet hubby in the train. When I was in the train, I saw someone in there too. Well, I know her but.... I just walk-in & keep a distance seat from her. (Someone back in sch days...~) Hmm, I didn't notice her after dat coz I was too busy showing my presents to my hubby.... I received a Godiva chocolatier from my client again, & alots lots of chocolates from them. Hubby couldn't wait to taste the Godiva Choco (so I have to feed him in the train... hahaha~) and he LOVES it of coz! Expensive chocolates!.... Anyway, when we alight the train, hubby saw someone that he knew. (I didn't notice thou'...~well how shld I put dis....) Okay, put it diz way... Just now was the wife, now her's hubby..... It's a friend of mine, but we didn't keep in touch anymore....

Back to my birthday celebration with hubby...

I enjoyed the crayfish pasta & mussle creamy cheesy so much :) & the moment was so special... Hubby treat me like a lil princess...Sweetzz :) he brought me 2 pair of shoes and I simply love it!! yay~ Thankz darling, I really appreciate ur special surprise :) Muakzz!!! mUakzz!!~

And before I end my lil update.... Just can't help it!!!~ I'm going to get hitch in 100 days!!! hahah~ Most of the preparation is almost complete, I guess... ( need to check the list again...) I think I shld put my list in my blog, hmm good ideas I think... coz I keep losing my notes everywhere I paste.... (Thks to ayra, aliya....)

Okay dear... I need to knock-out myself now...

Zzzzzzzz......ZZzzzzzz~

Beautiful day for me....

Happy BIRTHDAY To me...Happy BIRTHDAY To me...Happy BIRTHDAY To me...Happy BIRTHDAY To me...Happy BIRTHDAY To me...Happy BIRTHDAY To me...Happy BIRTHDAY To me...Happy BIRTHDAY To me...Happy BIRTHDAY To me!

yay~ Oh I love dis moment so much :) and what special dis yrs?........ Hubby is here with me to celebrated... Last 2 yrs, he was @ Brunei and I don't really enjoy my birthday though. but dis yr, it means alot to me! My wish has come true... I'm soon-to-be married @ age 2*!yay~ not too young, not too old to settled down. I would say just nice age to get married. Hmm..... I told hubby not to get me anything, coz I want him to save up first. Now is not the time yet to celebrate with gifts. Our main target, is the WEDDING, of coz.... Maybe juz a dinner will do, a romantic dinner of coz right darling? ;p

Anyway, have you guys catch a TV Ads "Imperfection is Perfect"? (the wife giving a say to her hubby's funeral, the snoring, wind action ) You know, everytime I saw that TV ads, it will remind me of my future with hubby. I was in the train thinking about our differences. And here are the top 12 differences:

No. 1: TICKLE~Gentel (heehee, notti2...*blushing)
Hubby: Loves to gentel a tissue into a tiny headed worm to dig his ears (FYI: he hates cotton bud, another words he enjoys more tickling his ears than digging) Haiz* One words to describe dis is "WEIRD".
Mee: I loves to gentel my lil' sexy dude :)) heehee.... (Sound so scandal sey! Sorry hubby, he is your replacement during the LONELY NITE, hahaha~) I can kiss him, hug him, sleep with him, and put him on top on my face while Im sleeping.. It's mine bantal gentel!!!... haha, smell nice okay! even hubby kinda like it, coz my bantal gentel will make you sleepy ;p (Special ingredient added, all preserved of coz...hahaha~)

No.2: Wasabi anyone?
Hubby: L.O.V.E it!!
Mee: H.A.T.E it!!

No.3: Sambal belacan... Telur pinang....
Hubby: Doesn't know how to eat it...(eventhough, I've teach him, hide the belacan in the rice. Heehee!) Now, hubby enjoys the telur pinang since last 2 weeks @ larkin (boiled egg wih herbs)

Mee: Love it with the ayam lemak chili padi or with nasi padang. Yummy~ Telur pinang, is just like tibits to me ;-p Simply delicious!!

No.4: Direction.... Left/Right?
Hubby: Passed. Dat's why he can drive...
Mee: Failed. heehee... Syg, which one is RIGHT? Hahah~

No.5: Pineapple
Hubby: Love the juice...
Mee:NO THANK YOU!

No.6: Doctor....
Hubby: Hates to see doctor, not to mention medicine.... I have to force him, scold him, nagging at him just to make him eat panadol... Gee~~
Mee:I loving it!!! The words "DOCTOR" means "MC" for me... hahaha~ Medicine wise, im quite okay lah... I will follow what the doctor have given me to take, as long I got my off, well-rested :)

No.7: Fish or Chicken?
Hubby: Chicken, yess! Fried, cook, BBQ, & the chicken butt. Love it ALOT!........ Fish? No thank you....
Mee: Love fish, especially with sweet n sours.... Yummy~ Chicken, okay2 but NOT THE BUTT! I hate the chicken butt, puke~

No.8:Toilet Time
Hubby: He can sit there for ages, waiting for "it" to come....
Mee: I will call hubby's hp if I need to pee @nite time. I will make hubby to keep me accompany by talking to me, (so when the cicakz hear my voice dey will start to hide, datz my theory you see... heehee) if hubby is unlucky he will get a heartattack, coz sometime notti cicak appear somwhere you see... It will just trigger me, and i will scream, AHHHHHhhhhh~~!!!!CicakkKKKK!~ heeeheeeven dad will wake up ;p (sometime is false alarm, it's just a rubber band I step on)

No.9: Pets
Hubby: He loves all cute pets. Eg. hamsters to CATS.
Mee: ALL THE ABOVE-MENTION. SCARE!

No.10: Gaming-strike
Hubby: LOVE GAMES... Computer games, Psp etc
Mee: It's always end before starting. Games-dummy. heehee

No.11: New Gadgets
Hubby: He will get excited when he saw new gadgets, especially latest handphone. He loves touch-screen mobile.
Mee: Boring, dunno how to use touch-screen... Phone is phone wat! Can call, msg, camera, music.... Im happy with it.

No.12: Crossing the road
Hubby: No problem... anywhere can cross.
Mee: I will scream before I cross the road.... One word to describe "RETARDED" hahaha~ Im scared okay!

Hmm, I think it's true that if the couple have alot of common is kinda of boring... but in a another side of it you'll enjoy doing it together. Like us, we loves watching sports, shopping & surfing the net... This is how we'll enjoyed our weekend.... Anyway, I believe life isn't perfect sometime it will turn out to be what you unexpected. And that's make your life more interesting :)

Olrite, lastly.... Happy Birday To Meee :)

Cheers baby!

Hey,it's April!...

Yayy!~ I LOVE APRIL ~xMuakzx

It's April now... diz wonderful month means alot to me :)

Firstly...we have already REGISTERED @ ROMM!! Yay!!~ I was abit nervous when we were Q up @ the counter. (Heehee~ I guess it's normal right?)Well, while waiting for our turn, I don't know why I felt so touch & sad. I just can't believe that I'm getting married soon, and hidayat is my soon-to-be my hubby.

I'm really thankful to allah swt for sending him for me as my soon-to-be lawfully hubby. But how i wish i could share diz wonderful moment with my dear mum. I wish she is there with me. Deep in my heart, asking myself, "Why mum can't wait for our wedding?" She will be happy smiling at us, looking at me and will say diz to hubby,"Yat, jaga kamaria baik2 eh?" and "Yah, jgn bully yat, sayang die sorg aje." Those words is still fresh in my mind till now. ~I love you mum :'( yah, rindu mak.........(*sob) Well, I know my mum will be very happy for me... That's for sure, i know :)

After we have registered our marriage, we went to JB. I want to tailor made my lace for my wedding dress, the tailoring cost quite cheap lah . Hopefully, she will do it nicely coz that lace cost hubby a BOMB!!@# we brought it from Jakeal, and it cost about RM600!!!Geeee~ I can't believe that hubby willing to buy it for me. Hmm, i hope it will suit me well for the dinner session @ hubby's side. Well, thanks darling for the lace, muakx!

Anyway, secondly, it's my birthday month (gee~im just getting more "mature" now)....hmm, I'm not looking forward for my bday though~ heehee!! And finally, marking on the date of 23rd april is soon to be my 100 days counting down to my beautiful dreamz wedding :)) yay! (ya, baby im super xcited now~) wooHOOO!

Well, I just couldn't help it to show how excited i am now. (eventhough, i still got a few more mth) but it simply super excited for me at the same time I AM VERY NERVOUS!! if you ask me why i can't give you the answer though~ it's just a feeling that you will get once you at diz stage. I always wonder how much my life will change when I'm married. Will I be a good wife and good mum? How cute my child will be...? Can I support my kids with alots of love & joy? So many ???Q?? runs thru my mind when I started couning down the days...

Insya'allah, I pray that I'm strong enuff to carry all the responsibilities & provide good life for my future kids benefits. Now, I really admire my parents for the love, care & the foods on the table that they provide me since young, alhamdulilah, amin.

Now it's my turn to take the next step of my life story... A daughter, a wife, a mother & grandma. (dat'z scary ya) Hmm... Life is short, let's make it more interesting & meaningful memories to be written in your heart diary :)

My advance bday wish is.... :)

.............................................S/3C/RE/T............................... *wink*

I can't wait to meet hubby this thursday, hmm... on friday we heading to JB again! :) yay!~

alright, that's all folks! getting tired....

See ya....

Kiss kiss baby...

Strike-out the long list....

TaDAA~~!! Look @ my latest blog header!!!....

(dat'z the most gorgeous couple of the year, heehee)

That's our photostudio pix, unedited by stylebridal. Honestly I think they don't have much to edit our original pix. All the pix looks awesome, and we just love the moment together doing the indoor & outdoor shootz. I love that pix so much, you can see we look alike. (AWw, sweetz) Even my sis told me, we resemble so much, it's like a beautiful match made in heaven. And I have to agreed :) what do u think....?? Yess, right...? Well, I'm truly glad that I found my dearest hubby as my soulmate :) (Geee~ I can't wait for our wedding day, seriously!) ........

Anyway, we've selected all the bestest & nicest dress in the collection

( well, it took us 4 hrs to decide~ hahaha)

Poor my bridemaid, she got to be the judge for our decision & keep remind us what color not to pick or else we will blend in with the dias. hahaha~ Well, at least now we already pick our dress & i felt so much relieved :)) ( lesser things to think now)

I still can't believe that we took 4 hours to pick 4 dresses plus one tailor made dress.!!~ Hahaha~ Anyway, there was 4 couple choosing @ the same collection, but they can decide faster than us. It's like they took about 15min to decide on 1 cloth without trying it, of coz. Well, my hub will asked me to try on and see if it's good on me. And if it looks good on me he will try it on too.

And that's went on for 4 hours! We changed and put on another dresses ( I think we try most of the collection , heehee)(Sampai dpt gelaran from the asst "Pengantin Paling Rajin") Than, my hubb was telling me that he saw the other couples were checking on us. (the bride will give that jealous look ) i wonder why... Hmm~ Hubb, was telling me that even the guys was looking us. The others 4 couple, abit more sihat2 lah so the bride have no choice but to take the "exclusive collection" for their sizes. (pay more of coz) So Im lucky that I can wear most of the dress in the regal package. And I look gorgeous with any of the awesome dresses, and hubb always got praises from the pakcik & my bias bridemaid. (Arghh~) He looks good in everything, very charming eventhough he cute lil botak... heehee~ Opps! MAChoO lah~ Hahah..

So after choosing the dresses, the asst took our measurement... I was abit scare to see my body measurement. Hubb, went first to take his measurement, of coz. When it's my turn, my feet just went cold. (Doa maha doa seh) I tried not to peek when she taking my measurement, but when come to my waist line she say it out, "pinggang ahh, 27inch" I just couldn't believed what she just said. So i look at the paper that she wrote. Yess, it's 27" waistline!!! I jump and pull hubb's hand. HAHAHA~~I just couldn't believed it. Finally it's 27inch!!!! No wonder, I can fit most the collection there. Hubby was so proud of me, only hubb knows how much pain I went thru' to lose my weight gain. It's finally paid off, and I really want to maintain till my wedding day. (Pls pray for me ya :) haiz.... Can't wait for my biggest beautiful wedding day......

Striking-out more from our wedding list, we just booked our pre-marriage course yesterday. We took the one day course bcoz we are both lazy to attend 2 days course. Wahlau so expensive ya, $300 per couple~ Well, it better be good lesson for both of us, coz it's so "peng" (Thai words). haizZZ~ So now, just to attend the course, collect card, etc.... (never ending list...haizzz~)

Oh btw, hubb's SAF captain called him yesterday from Brunei. Hubb's was surprised when he called him. He heard that he's getting married, so he asked the date. So hubb told him lah, then he suddenly asked him is it okay for him to be our photographer for his profolio. (he actually a professionel photographer in national geographic mag) but we already got our photographer. Then, he told hubb he going to resign SAF soon in June so he want to set up his own studio for bridal. And he proposed to use our wedding picture for his first set profolio (BEST RIGHT?) And the best part is he'll be doing it FOC for us. He will give us the picture for free, but he will use our picture for the profolio. Wahhh~ ade jugak org nk sponsor kite eh,heehee... Well, both of us agreed lah but now we got 3 photographer pulak... hahaha~ Confirm penat senyum :))

I just really can't wait till the wedding day :)) Yippee!

Cheers baby

(Grumpy) Arghh, I tink I gained some weight or is it water retension? or is it i felt guilty of having dat "WANT WANT crackers" just now??...

hmm, I just scared that I gained weight coz tmr need to meet up kak yatee to select the wedding dress & pay her 1k still got balance of $500 which i will pay on July for the final fitting. Actually, we are late for the baju selection coz hubby & i was busy with our invitation card, tailor made our dress, buying our bedroom set and all others stuff. So tmr we'll meet her and she will take our measurement and standby the dress for us.

I'm so freaking out, or maybe i just felt gulity of eating something just now. ~Siao Liao~
btw, the total package was 2.2k just for the actual day with Ratuwedding. Oh ya, we already did our photostudio. I request from my Stylebridal to spare us some of the pix but dey haf not edit them yet.I haf some of the unedit pix coz our intial plan was to put our pix on the card. (but dat idea was scrap later) Coz I actually prefer the emboss hard cover type than the soft cover.

Well, can't wait till my wedding cards ready for collection.... Yay!!~ I can't believe I'm getting married! Olrite I hope I can fit those small fitting dresses or else Im gonna SCREamMMM!!


Will keep you update okay...

Cat & Dog Fightz in my room!

Damn! Wat a day to start!...You know, I got a habit of withdraw cash from my saving and kept it in my spare purse and place it inside my drawer coz im so lazy to Q up @ the ATM. Well, I always standby the cash with me in case i need to pay for anything. So just now I thotz of paying the visa bill, & .... SH*T! Where the hell is my purse?!

I can't find my burberry purse in my drawer!!! Oh my god, im going to cry my heart out! @#$% I pull out my dressing drawer, throw out all my stuff on the floor... IT WASN'T DER! I jump up on my bed and searching thru' all my pillow, in case i just slip it in my pillow case (which i never done b4) and nothing found!
My heart beating so fast i start to panic & imagine what if... I ACCIDENTALLY THROW IT AWAY?!!~ Arghhh!!! I'm gonna find it no matter what. It's a matter life & dead for me! it's not a small amount in that purse, a few thousand inside for my bridal, cards, tailoring & all others wedding expenses. It's ALL IN THAT PURSE! I sit infront of my TV console, pull all my arts beads boxes and all the rubbish inside that rack...NOTHING AGAIN! DAMN IT!!~ then here come my dad, asked me what am i searching for, I just want to ignored him. Coz I know if i told him i lost my $$ he will nag @ me instead of helping out. So I told him I lost my key, & yet he still nag @ me for being so careless...

HAIZ~ thkz for unwanted pressure nagging~~ (Sigh) I try the other side of the console, where all my wedding items kept in, my jewelery, ring, hubby's watch, his ring,the perfume set etc etc... i open up all the paper bag juz to make sure I didn't miss out. Only God knows how freaking out I was. Nothing was there too.

I try to calm down myself, and i can't even breathe. I close my eyes to relax ( well, trying to scan thru' all my stuff wit my eyes close, AS IF! haha ) i slowly pull out all the photo album section, and TADA!~ the purse just slip out from nowhere!! I almost wanted to scream out loud. I grab my burberry purse and hug it to my heart. It's like I just found a winning lottery ticket, haha~ JACKPOT! ~

Thank goodness, i found it or else i just don't know where to find dat 5k in 4 month...(ya, unless i don't eat, i walk to work, no shopping for @ least 2mth) I felt so relieved. And the funniest part of my miserable day was.... when my dad saw me sitting down hugging the purse to myself, he asked," Dat ur purse, haf you found ur key yet? nxt time put inside ur bag don't anyhow put" I just smiled at him. heehee~ Notti me!

Anyway, my entire room was totally in a mess... It's like a cat & dog fighting ring, Geee!~ so scary HAHAH~Haiz~i need to clean up all the mess later. Goshh~ dat's gonna take 1 or 2 hr, DAMN! Oh yes, i finally found my M.I.A memory card got alot of my pix w/ hubby during the countdown time. Will load some later lah~


Cheers baby~

Deeper in my heart

Hey baby,

Can't believe that i have stop blogging for a long time....

Well, alot of "things" happened to me since last november 08 and it was expected, unexpected, stress and hurts. And I hate to recall those sadden moment I went thru alone dealing with my emotional stress.

My 2008 year ended with alot of tears. I can't tell to anyone coz it involved family & someone that i care most.... So things get worst for me, i was totally depressed and suffering from emotional break down. I don't trust anyone and i don't share it even with my fiance.

For almost 2 mth, I had a sleepless nite. It was unbearble for me, and it effects my work too. I decided to seek some advise from doctor. I was given a medicine for daily intake before bed time for a month. Alhamdullilah, it helps me to relax & now i felt better & no longer taking the medicine.

Things does happened for a reason, and I hope that I will move on my life peacefully...

Thankfully, I still have someone to loves me & understand my feeling. That will be mine loving, sayang. He is the one who pull me thru all the break down moment eventhough he don't understand the whole situation. Thank you my dear for loving me.

Well, I believe it's better to treasure & appreciate the person who loves you rather than the person that you loved...

Now, I just pray for the happiness & love for my family especially to my dearest dad. He is suffering from kidney failure and now on medication, and i hope he will get well soon & be there with me to celebrate my beautiful day which is my wedding dis year...

Oh btw, i would like to officially announce that I'm getting hitched to my dearest fiance, Hidayat, in 144days to count down, insya-allah. I'm truly glad that everythings wents smoothly for us, now just waiting for our big wedding day & it's hubby's birday too. It's a DOUBLE of happiness!!

Bridal, photographer, catering, honeymoon booking, bedset, gifts, invitation cards etc...etc... all done except maybe next mth we'll be going to ROMM.

Hubby, doesn't have time coz he is now on training so abit difficult for us to go there. But Im really glad that he got really stable job now. At least I don't have to worry about his career for now. And Im really proud of him, he is really hard-working. He really cares about our future, he wants us to have comfortable life. Insya-allah, Im sure he will make it. Amin.

Lastly, I hope the wedding willl go smoothly as planned. I looking forwards for my honeymoon so much, really need the break from all the preparation stress that i had. My hubby really wants us to have a great & beautiful memories of our honeymoon and he decided to booked a royal deluxe suite for the 5 days trip. Im sure we will have a wonderful time there :)

Well, i really can't wait to spent the rest of my life with him... Aww..~Sweetz! Anyway, to all my fellas out there, whom we have lost touch for long time & want to come to our most happiness day reception, please do drop me your hp number/ ur address @ my email: babyzdk@hotmail.com or you can reach me @ my mobile 9005-6947.

(Yawning) my eyes is getting lazy now. I think I should stop now, before my eyes refused to shut later.